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           i was confined in the hospital for a week. i acquired dengue fever.. the experience was so traumatic. i almost died. the fever is so deadly. there is no anti-biotic  or any other medicine that can directly fight against the virus, the patient's  ultimate and only weapon is his immune system. my doctor who happens to have taken her med proper in U.p manila prescribed a lot of multivitamins and this very expensive milk that costs sixty pesos in a single drinking, eh i have to drink that milk three times a day as supplement to meals since i could hardly take any food. the experience was the most terrible so far. i vomit  everytime i eat. but the thought of a long life kept me from puking so i mustered the energy to not puke no matter how hard it had been for me.

            but the very reason why until this very moment, a very pretty human is keeping a blog and currently making another entry is no less than GOD's divine love for me. I had a very formidable case compared to other typical dengue cases. i am not talking about the complexity of the fever  but the odds we have to daunt just so that we may  not compromise our highly valued religious credence. you see, my parents are Jehopvah's witnesses and my faith in Jehovahs is unreserved though i am not baptized as his witness. and one of my religion's decisive convictios is its firm preclusion of blood transfusion. we value the bible's teaching about abstaining from blood. and the only way (tat is according to the doctor) that a patient infected with dengue could be saved whenever he internally or externally bleeds is by means of undergoing blood transfusion. and since we do not buy this option, during my critical phase (that was when i no longer had a high fever, that's the time your body temperature gets back to normal) which was day 7, my dad signed a waiver telling that the hospital and my attending physicial shall not be held liable if anything bad happens to me since we   won't agree with blood transfusion. the whole of my extended family including my closest friends prayed for my recovery. Until day 8 came that the doctor noticed that my tummy seemed to have enlarged and that i might have been bleeding internally so she summoned me to undergo an ultrasound test so as to check whether my internal organs have enlarged. Because God Jehovah is good, the result was negative just in time with the result of my platelet count which went high on the 8th da. (the platelet count is the determinant whether a person has dengue or not..  the normal is 150-350000, mine went down to 70000 and went to 90000  until i reached 150000 again)

       so to god thank you for giving me my second life..
 

              Naku, im planning to defer from my application na sa org. i have very little time to spare to devote for org work and all those tambayan activities.  I admit, it's not just about time management that urges me to defer but the fear that i might not be accepted as a member of the society.

               Yes... I also fear the activity itself. It's not lyk my normal self anymore when i was so full of determination pertinent to pursuing my goal. ewan ba basta. d pa nman sue if i'll continue o not. but chances are high that i may defer one of these days especially that in the coming days or so, i might also be busy with woking in a call cente in  makati. one thing more, finals is fast approaching.

anyways, there is always a next time. ryt don? what do u think don? shud i continue or be ur partner by the next year of application?... hehehe

         kaw tlg emz.. all orgs in u.p require tambay hours and buddy bidding.. hehe.. i know what ur thinking hehe.. pero still i won't tello it.. hehe khit it may appear very obvious to u.. haha. tlgng gud luck to me.. and about the rival hahaha.. hahhaha. aun na un.. inamin tlg nila..

       eneweiz just got up from bed. took a nap kasi eh. taking a few sleep is now a luxury to me, just lyk all busy individuals say.. parang artista hahaha.. and speaking of artista, my admiration for this local matinee idol has again resurrected despite recent negative write-ups that may possibly turn-off avid admirers.. he is rumored to be gay though he claims he already has a three-year old son.. he is no less than the lord of my wildest sexual fantasies, piolo pascual.. t yummy...

       i reckon his gay. i saw him last year with brent javier, another cute guy who is a supermodel ( the "lee" in karel marquez' ponds commercial). they were strolling all over greenbelt,. dear, cla nga cguro.. so because of that sight, i lost my admiration for him. but now, i came to realize that piolo pascual being a gay is no longer an issue to me. it even gave my sexual fantasies greater chances of materializing haha. of course, if ever piolo really is gay then chances are he might also consider having sex with a gay.. and this is where i enter.. haa.. cge so long guyz,.../
 

           thanks emz. kaw lang nakakatiyagang dumalaw sa site ko. and because of this site is still on the go.. kaya nga i-connect mo ko sa mga friends mong my account. la pa ko gaano frens. haha..

         yes, hirap tlg ng world lit. imagine the torment it causes me considering the fact that i devote little time for reading. i just coudn't muster the energy to throw myself into reading books. i am not used to it. unlike some pipol i know lyk don rodney, jp, and emz for instance. these three enjoy reading. they probably have read many books already. it's not that i don't enjoy reading, in fact i do... i honestly do, it's jst that i am too idle to do it. i'd rather watch a movie and watch t.v than read and do my homework. and i am not proud of this habit. i don't even appreciate this stupid habit.

        perhaps this answers why now, i can hardly achieve my endeavors... yeah.. too sad am i? huhuhu..

        here's the story.. i am presently applying for this "prestigious" org (not as prestigious as their rival..in fact some mems even admit it..hehe).. this org is stereotyped as egocentric. perhaps because of the skill you ought to possess in order for you to join and be in the club (well not really, some mems are not that good). and this skill when mastered is really something to be proud of. now here enters the tight spot...

        i don't think i have the skill, neither will i learn it. i'm as worse as a pessimist, am i not?..

       i couldn't muster the motivation to drive me into being that good. i just couldn't. though at the back of my mind, something's tellin me i can.. and it's my fault anyway. i am to blame. i ignored the three major activities prior to introducing and enhancing the skill. and i dont even devote much of my time in attending "tambayan activities" which is set to further your potential all the more.. that's precisely the reason why among the applicants, so far i got the lowest tambay hours.. it's way too far from the second least.. and why i am so left behind. it's really me to blame. i was full of enthusiasm at the beginning. i even bid for the highest-paid member as my personal buddy. of course being the hoighest-paid memeber of the org impies your the most-sought after and without a doubt the best in the group. given this advantage, still i am left behind. ,my buddy even told me yesterday that i only have 3 and a half month left to work hard to cope up with the rest of the apps after we got through with the 1st grade activity of the org. he said," kasi ikaw eh bihira kitang makita sa tambayan eh.. ddi ka naman pumupunta. panu yan ngaun"..

      he's just so ryt. just lyk now. i have ny free cut. yet, instead of going to the tambayan and participate in the usual activities instore for the apps, here i am making this thing. so again the blameworthy is me. so i don't have any right to scapegoat and pass the fault to someone else when i did a complete mess yesterday in our 1st graded activity.

     i will not disclose the org and the skill i am sturggling to have. but of coure anyone who knows me would find it easy to guess what are these org and skill i am talking about. just one clue so as to provide the link i made emtion earlier about the reading thing which is perhaps the reason why i am doing bad in my application for the org,... when you read a lot you'll definitely earn the skill..

      ok so long. till next entry/...
 

the last tym i tried making an entry caused me so much exasperation. hopefully this time will be fine.

my supposed entry last time was about my english12.its world lit.ryt now we're halfway the course. weve finished four classics, we started with the iliad then trojanwoman, bhagavad gita,songofsolomon,and just earlly this day we had our exam for shakuntala. we are coerced to read every book before its due. my professsor assumes that all were able to read the book so she could give a quiz and assign us a reaction paper. i am really finding it difficult to get high grades in this subject.making critical analysis about a book is not that hard. what'smaking this subject hard is how our teacher evaluates our work. she certainly is a low-grader. imagine, the highest grade she can give is only 2.25. i am not the only one who worries about this since everyone in the class shares the same sentiment. we are all in unison in the idea that our teacher should give consideration in giving out grades , considering the fact that this subject is one oft he most time consuming if not the most.

we have no problem about her as a professor, in fact she is one of the smartest profs ive ever had so far. the only problem as i said is the grading thing that even makes things for us all the more complicated. good thing don rodney decided not to pursue this course. i bet he would  have had  a hardtime given the same professor even if he's good in writing.hehe..